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I fear you.

With every second that passes, I get closer to becoming you. And it terrifies me. I stand here, in the present, staring into the void of the unknown. Countless ordeals and obstacles await me and I fear I may not overcome them. I have so much before me, so much to face  in order to become you.

What if I fail?

The decisions that I've made have not been the best ones. And they're going to make things harder for you. I am so selfish. I only think of myself when I consider my actions and I do what satisfies me, forcing you to struggle and suffer. I am so sorry.

Sometimes I wonder if it is too late. I wonder if I have already destroyed you, along with any chance of you being happy. Sometimes the simple consolation, "Everything's going to be okay," seems impossible and ludicrous...

But sometimes it brings hope.

It's not too late.
I can save you.

There are so many things that I want to do. I am only beginning to find myself, no, creating myself. There are still things that I have to learn about myself. Have you discovered them yet?

Are you the person that I want you to be?
Can I make you the person that I want you to be?

Our hopes, our dreams, our happiness. They all depend on me. And I promise to do my best to achieve them. For us.

Sometimes I fear you. But sometimes I can't wait to be you.
Ever find yourself wondering what the future holds for you?

I'm a little worried about my future at the moment... jumps around a little. Will have to edit that...

This was originally going to be a very personal letter, but I changed it to make it easier to relate to. The original is tucked away on my shelf waiting for my 30-year-old self to read it. However, I may upload it here as well.

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xbeckygx Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wonderful. I really like this, very relatable and I love your writing style :)
Daydreaming-Aurora Featured By Owner Mar 24, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you very much for the kind words. :huggle:
monstroooo Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Very thoughtful piece :)

I actually take the opposite view - I've always relished being the older me. The one who's already got through the difficulties, that's made the mistakes and learned from them, that's walked the path already. The future's never really worried me - it's the present I struggle with!
Kymira12 Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist

I have featured your wonderful piece of literature in my journal. If you would like to take a look, you can see it here [link] . If you have enough time, can you please take a look at the other featured deviants and support them too? I'm sure they will appreciate your support ^.^

I wish you have a good day and/or night!!!

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Daydreaming-Aurora Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you very much! I will definitely check out the other artists featured!
A-Lovely-Anxiety Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
such a relatable piece.
amazing. you have such a beautiful mind and it just splatters over the page and i love it.
such a great work.
Daydreaming-Aurora Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you so very much. :huggle: :tighthug:
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